I Choose I

Do you remember that game we used to play with our friends and cousins?  Did y'all play that game?  I'm pretty sure y'all did.  At the get together's when we were meant to be behaving and not running a dismal at our aunts or OUR homes when family came over to visit?  Remember????  A, B, C, D.....Z, you close ya eyes and twirl ya hand and stick the pencil on the paper, open ya eyes and whatever letter it landed on?  You gotta write a girls name, boys name, car, fruit, country, colour....starting with that letter and hope you don't share one of them with someone or else you get half the points?  Q, was quite the brain drainer.  Ahhhhhhh there we go....nowwwww you remember!  Lol!  What did we call it?  Wait?!?  We called it, Girls, Boys?  Did we?  "You wanna play boys, girls.....?"  Hmmmmmm...I'm thinking.
Hard.
But, that's what I'm hearing in the silence within these walls of my little haven, my bedroom, as I imagine pencils and paper and a page full of circled alphabets as a child.  Either way, if I recall correctly, my daughter and her cousins called it, General Knowledge.

Right now?  I'm just gonna cover me eyeballllllls and whichever letter my finger touches, ima talk about a topic starting with that letter....okay?

Okay....here goes!

...........................................................................................

Space bar! Wait...
0...Wtf?  I'm aiming too low on this keybpard, hold on...
"I" there we go!  Shew, thought that's gonna go on allll night but a girl is typing on her phone right now and these buttons are small.  Apparently, I should be ashamed for still using a Blackberry!  (I hear you Samsung and iPhone users!  Mmmmm-hmmmmm!)  But remember that when you guys are running willlld, frantically stampeding towards wifi hot spots as if they're having a sale on money?  I'm strolling right behind you Whatsapping my honey via a BIS connection.

Gotcha!
Thank you.
Thank you, very much.

I'll admit, I did cave once!  For a whole five minutes!  Yes, I did!  Caved, did I.  I did choose a Samsung on my last upgrade and five minutes later, the discomfort of being cut off due to shortage of data compelled me to call them back and immediately change it to another Blackberry.  Those phones are amazing though, both the Samsung and the iPhone.  I just wish though that they would introduce them with something like BIS and an optional keyboard.  Typing your books on a full touch screen isn't as easy as it sounds.  Unless data is only expensive here?  Probably.  I dunno.  All I know is that my daughter constantly ran out of data and her father and I were constantly buying more!  And that was WITH the wifi contract that I'd already gotten for her!

But now?  Back to my alphabet!

Among those choices, I'm thinking I could be talking about space shuttles, but fuck do I know about them?    Let's leave that to NASA!  Or I could talk about.....zero, nada, diddly-SQUAT!  But that would mean ending the post and that wasn't the point of the post.  How about we just go with my third try, something beginning with the letter "I".

Lemme meditate on it for a minute.  Hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm------OKAY okay!  I got one!  I got one!!!!
INTERESTING!!!  No-no, see?  Don't just be jumping to conclusions like that.  That's not my word.  I was thinking with my thumbs.  Just saying it's interesting that my pinky chose the "I" since I am so very deeply IN love!

Buuuuuuuuuut?!  That's not my word either.

HoweveRRRR?  I did manage to find INNER peace over the last two years.  Ahhhhh, now there's a word worth talking about.  Lemme tell you?  INNER peace is not under-rated!  Not on ya life!  NOT ON YA LIFE!  There's something about feeling serene inside that's just so addictive!  Mannnnn!  Yeah yeah, part of it IS because of a man but I was saying mannnnn!  Like, mannnnnn, you know?  Mannnnnn!

And that tells me that allllllllllllll of the frogs I've had to kiss to land up in THIS here emotional spot!  All of the general life judgement errors that I've made to reach this particular place?  Was worth every last tear that I'd cried, disappointment that I'd felt and lie that I'd convinced myself, was the truth.  'Cause you wonder sometimes and ya like "woe is me" but at some point you do see why this happened and that happened and then ya like, "wow is life!"

Now!?!?  Here I am and I can't IMAGINE ever feeling this complete.  I can honestly say, never!  Far as my relationship?  He keeps me on a high, brings out the very best in me, in every way.  We never argue, even when we disagree.  We don't verbally abuse each other.  Emotionally abuse each other.  We don't anything abuse each other.  We laugh together.  Sooooooh much laughter!  It's an ease that I'd always dreamed about and lost faith in the fact that I'd ever find it.   We're silly and goofy together.  Comfortable.  We believe IN each other.  It's just?  INEXPLICABLY different to any relationship I'd ever been a part of.  That kinda contentment, people, is when you will without a doubt look no further, not pass, not sideways, not backwards, not underneath!  That is when you're aware that the world is filled with billions of people but you're not yearning for anything that any one of them are able to offer because what you have is all you need.  I've never had that.  Not while I was married and not in the relationship that followed my marriage.  So not having to wake to and sleep through that feeling where something inside still feels untouched?  That's been long awaited for me.

The rest of the areas in my life?  Yeah, you guessed it!  Everything falls into place, it does.  So don't you go giving up because things don't always feel the best.  It's too easy to throw ya hands up in the air and let the pressures bury you alive.  Here's what I've come to realize.  Like any event, you have so much planning and preparing to do and this doesn't work out and that doesn't go according to plan and you're sitting on ya bed scratching 'cause the stress caused hives or Candida or something shitty like that.  Eh!  Same with life.  Everything, good and bad, is preparation for when the main events unfold!  Now just IMAGINE stepping outa ya mums womb.  O_o!  Hahahhahaa, like it has a door, right?!?  Stepping outa ya mums womb and she's like, "Go find a job!  I carried ya ass for almost a year, you freeloader!"  You'd be looking at her crazy, "Ma?  I don't even know how to wipe my own ass yet!?  I only know what I'm s'posed to do WITH my ass!"  See?!  We need to grow and learn and be prepared to handle our main events.  We need to fail and fall and get up and keep moving and succeed.

So yeahhhhhhhh!  I'm living one of my main events right now and ya Rambler is IN love with life!!!

......Water restrictions Go Live

First electricity...now we will be having water restrictions.  The first place I normally run to dump the shit on when anything becomes uncomfortable in the country, city or area that I live in, is the government.  However, the dams are drying up through no fault of theirs.  And they are in enough crap right now with the Al-Bashir situation.

Yes
Charge them!

These mofo's gave the Dalai Lama endless problems when he was trying to gain a visa to travel into South Africa for the 2014 peace summit............http://www.theguardian.com/world/2014/oct/02/nobel-peace-summit-south-africa-dalai-lama-visa.  And they refused him a visa prior to that too, I might add.

BUT?!?!??!  BUT!!!!!!!!! Al-Bashir, WHERE HE IS BEING ACCUSED OF THINGS LIKE MASS GENOCIDE, WAR CRIMES AND CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY!!!!!  He, however, is very welcome here, it seems.  And it doesn't seems nothing.  It is. They welcomed him and then let him escape and now.......listen to that.......it's the blended sound of excuses and crickets.

From that little comparison, the only explanation that makes any sense to me is that birds of a feather flock together!

Now that I've managed to raise my own level of anxiety, back to the drought!  It's one thing to sit back and enjoy our beautiful sunny weather but with that?  And I can only speak for myself, I quickly forgot that it hasn't actually rained, I mean a rainfall that continued for dayyyyyyyyyys kinda rainfall!  For a lonnnnnnnnng time!

I remember us going through a drought as a teenager, however, this one is reported to be one of the worst droughts since the last one, which was in 1991.

Either way, for those of you who require the rationing schedule together with the article, here you go.

http://www.ilovedurban.co.za/rationing-of-water-begins-in-kzn/

 

The Power Of Two, etc, etc

Hi guys

Just wanted to share two new poems I've written.  I saw an idea regarding blog posts, something that I want to try because I know I've been missing in action for a while...WATCH THIS SPACE!  

Oh!  AND I'M JOINING THE GYM....A GYM WITH THOSE GHASTLY, PAINFUL MACHINES that distort the faces of humans!  I FEEL AS THOUGH I HAVE BETRAYED MYSELF because I VOWED NEVER TO EVEN LOOK IN THE DIRECTION OF STEPPERS AND TREADMILLS......but dance class no longer exists and cellulite insists that I take control, so that's what i'm about to do....WISH ME LUCK!  Gillian, my sis in law will be training me...she's a hard ass in the gym OMG, so I seriously need those wishes!  FA REYYYYYALLLLLLL!  Gonna break ya Rambler!  Help!


The Power of Two

When he's forgotten that he has a heart that's worth loving
Be there to remind him that it's the love of that heart that keeps you moving
When your world feels like it's closing in on you and you can't take no more
Ask for his hand, hold it tight and watch him kick down a door
That's what we're here for, to restore the parts that break through the day
When life has overwhelmed us and we're in need of a moment to play
Women and men alike, they sometimes become so caught up in pretending
That they need only themselves yet there's someone close by who wants to do the tending
And only when ego's are suppressed and sharing replaces the pride
Only then will a couple remember that together still means side by side
It's a vast and ever changing world out there
What better feeling is it to know you have someone who'll care
That one who when day turns into night and seasons pass on the baton
Their love's never conditioned by the coming of Autumn
We've lost track of consistency, the one thing that gives love its confidence
Because to prove that we're independent has shaded it's importance
So the cracks begin to show and they widen until we've drifted
Sadly too far apart to reach even the tips of each others fingers
Take back the power of two in your marriage or in your relationship
We've been fighting too long now to hold onto that ownership
But ownership of what?  Of our right to out-single the single?
What about the ownership of love you promised never to be fickle?
Claim again that closeness that outward appearance continues to deny
By allowing your man or your woman to be just that before the concept of couples die

(c) 2015 Stacey Kell
2015 June 22


Wait, wait, wait..before you go........I wrote this other one a few days ago...this one got me personally invited to a "Healing From Divorce" Seminar!  



The One That Stays

It's happening all over the world, this minute, right now
Someone's walking away, other's are taking a vow
Simultaneously, one heart breaks while one finds completion
That's the way that love goes, no discrimination
Like death, only few get to really prepare
Where they can see it coming so they're kinda aware
They then begin their healing while waiting for the end
And can break away with not too much left to mend
But what happens when love ends and it's outa the blue?
And the waves of emotions, they keep coming at you?
Tumbling you constantly, stealing the ground from under your feet
And you don't actually know what your next step should be
Love is the only part of life that's a gamble at best
Where you're either lucky or you're not in this very blind quest
Maybe it's because you have to surrender your destiny
To someone in the hope that they see you as something to cherish
Despite the possibilities, despite the uncertainty
We're still in search of it, seeking love constantly
In the eyes of a stranger, maybe the heart of the existing
Believing in our souls that it'll find us if we never stop persisting
Regardless of the hurts, the loss, the separate ways
We still stubbornly hope that the next will be the one that stays

(c) 2015 Stacey Kell
2015 June 21

PLEASE SHARE FAR AND WIDE Avoid Smash and grab - The criminal explaining how it works

My mum and aunt visited their friends in the US and they kept asking them, "Why do y'all keep doing that??!?!  Every time we get in the car, you guys put y'all's bags on the floor by y'all's feet!?!?!? "

Well.............This was why....

My heartfelt condolences go out to the victims and their families of the The Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church in Charleston massacre.  

Sometimes...the end is a beginning of a new beginning...#IamLonnieBee

He said THAT!

And this is why I love and respect Lonnie and his Good Girlfriend Movement!  The fact that he takes the time to post these video's alone?  That's enough to tell me that he's real about his care.

We often lose common sense when we're caught up in love and relationships.  We then try to water down anything negative as far as anything that shows that our "at the time" partners should be our "once upon a time" partners.  Not to worry though, as Lonnie said, it's okay to mess up, just don't sit in it.

You're better than that.  Man or woman.  Let them call you dumb and stupid and useless and whatever else.  It says way more about them than it does about you but most importantly....his/her type of loving shouldn't mean pain for you.  Abusive words, fisted hands, degradation?  Eh!  Love doesn't inspire the use of those things.

I just watched this and thought I'd share it.  Someone out there needs to hear this, of that I'm sure!



https://www.facebook.com/lonnie.bee.5/videos/vb.1770624057/10200436029341207/?type=2&theater

A Parents Pride

Now THIS?!?!?!?

THIS is what I call precious!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmokay yeah, I might be just a teeeeeny bit biased because I made her but still!

Okay, okaYY, geeeeeeez!  Who called the conception police?!?!  I didn't make her by myself, i made half of her!  @_- I mean, I am half of her!  >_<  Wait?  Half of me made her!?!?  Oh &^%$ it!  I gave birth to ALL of her without an epidural!  Yup!  Trumped by me with the vagina and child-bearing hips, thank you.  Very much!  Oh, don't make that face, you know you've been beaten by a vagina before!  And liked it to.  You mighta even been freaky enough to have enjoyed being hip-choked!

O_O

What?

I'm the very last person that you need to be asking about how does one get choked by a hip!  Ask the person who came up with twerking, they might know 'cause I damn well never knew that one could do all the things that we see asses do these days.

Yes

Yes, I've been practic..............................................................scureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetch!!!!!!!!!!

See what your'll made me do!  I had little to NO intention of coming up on here, talking about anybody's, let alone my, vagina or twerking ass but then y'all started pushing and pushi-----------bad example.

(My attention span scares me)  

A-hem, (I just composed myself)........assssssss I was saying.

Mother's are meant to be mushy and subjective, aren't they?  A Little?  Especially when they watch their kids being fortunate enough to be doing what they love.

First thing I said to her when I saw this pic was, "I see Jackie Chan Jr. in the corner there!" LOL!

I wonder if we're having loadshedding tonight?  Hmmmmmmmm?

Sexual Soul Ties----Kaliburius S. Bigelow

Came across this post on Facebook today.  It's pretty dark but I needed to share this because it somehow feels way too familiar to me and I will say this because I think about it every single day--------------don't ignore your intuition and don't ignore the warnings of those around you, often it's those looking from the outside in who have a crystal clear view of your situation. 

LADIES be careful of the Men you let into your heart and enter your body. Sex is not only a physical exchange-- it is also a spiritual exchange. Sex is powerful and a direct pathway into your temple. Some of you can't get over that low life of a man because the demons he carries within him still torment you spiritually. You KNOW in your gut that even though he looks attractive...something about him ain't right. Yet, something still keeps luring you to him. Your mind and body wrestles back and forth with spiritual principalities and "sexual soul ties." Sexual soul ties BIND you to that man, men his type and the dark spirits that follow him. Some women often wonder why the SAME type of dude always pursue them... Why they ATTRACT the same type of guy after they got rid of the scum bag that plagued their life.. Its that FAMILIAR Spirit he left with You !!! BE CAREFUL who you open yourself up to receive in your bed. --- "If He ain't Prayed Up, Don't be Laid Up!" -- Kaliburius S. Bigelow

The Kid Magnet

Good Luck, Teacher Paige

Not feeling the best right now, one woulda thought that having that op to remove the multiple cysts would mean no further cyst pain.

Just wanted to stop by and wish my girl good luck on her first day as a TEFL teacher. She told me on the day of her interview, 'cause they have to do a mock lesson as part of the interview? That the kids loved her. I'm not at all shocked. She's like a kid magnet, that one.

Best of luck tomorrow, sugar! Mummy's real proud of you!

Blogworthy !!!!!

Wonderful gesture, Mr Motsepe.  However, the reality is that without the correct administration, this money could be channeled all the way into the pockets of the greedy!  Please keep that in mind so that your generosity is not squandered!  Thank you for your heart!

Big heart: South Africa’s richest black man gives $1.3 billion, half his wealth, to the poor

BBC News – South Africa’s richest black man, Patrice Motsepe, has announced he is giving away half his wealth to improve the lives of the poor.

The mining magnate said the money would be handled by the Motsepe Foundation to address education and health issues.

He said he was inspired by the word’s two wealthiest men, Bill Gates and Warren Buffet, who are encouraging billionaires to donate to charity.

Mr Motsepe has a net worth of $2.65bn (£1.67bn), Forbes’ rich list estimates.

‘Part of our culture’

Born in the Soweto township, he is a lawyer by training and South Africa’s first and only black billionaire.

He founded the publicly traded mining conglomerate, African Rainbow Minerals, which has interests in platinum, gold, coal and other minerals.

He made most of his mining fortune through the government’s black economic empowerment policy, which mandates that mining companies be at least 26% black-owned, says the BBC’s Pumza Fihlani in Johannesburg.

The businessman also owns Pretoria-based football club Mamelodi Sundowns.

Mr Motsepe made the announcement at an event in Johannesburg, where on a live video link Microsoft founder Mr Gates praised his decision.

He said he was also going to join the The Giving Pledge, a campaign started by Mr Gates and investor Mr Buffet in 2010. So far more than 70 billionaires have signed up to it.

“I decided quite some time ago to give at least half of the funds generated by our family assets to uplift poor and other disadvantaged and marginalised South Africans but was also duty-bound and committed to ensuring that it would be done in a way that protects the interests and retains the confidence of our shareholders and investors,” Mr Motsepe said in a statement.

Mr Motsepe said he was also inspired by the spirit of “ubuntu” – an African belief system which translates as “I am because you are”, meaning individuals need other people to be fulfilled.

“South Africans are caring, compassionate and loving people. It has always been part of our culture and tradition to assist and care for less fortunate and marginalised members of our communities. This culture is also embodied in the spirit and tradition of ubuntu/botho,” he said.

– BBC News

Humility in Success

My late uncle was an alcoholic for many, mannnnny years! For most of his married life actually. No!!! No! NO. I'm not bashing family members. We all have our weaknesses. Mine? Is not olives! Yours? Might be licking paint off walls or something. To each his own I say, so....happy licking to ya! You would be able to tell immediately that my uncle was not of our generation because he died a married man. Not just on paper too. His wife, to this day, has never taken another man, neither has she ever spoken of him, derogatorily! Me? I shall live out the rest of my days in awe of the love she had for him as well as with the insistence that derogatorily can actually be found in a dictionary. Somewhere.

Just? Take my hand and follow me and I promise to lead you safely through the maze that somehow seems to form in the middle of my posts......to the reason that I said what I said!

Ready?

Okay, let's go.

Oo-oo-oooooo!!!? Talking about mazes? I happened upon....man I just love saying that, you know how some phrases change your accent automatically...even makes your nose look sharper when you say them. I? Happened! Upon this series called, Marriage Bootcamp, on tv! It was real. Reality real. Well as real as reality tv can get. Either way, they put these couples in this house and give them a buncha tasks in communication and leadership and teamwork and help them work through their relating issues and whatnot. I won't give too much away. Ignore that I just gave the series plot away BUT?!? Pretend I didn't and check it out if you can. I thought it was a pretty cool take on therapy for married couples as opposed to sitting for an hour in front of a therapist.

Personally? Not too sure that I'd want to be on a reality series of that sort. At least not publically but I wouldn't be opposed to doing something LIKE that with other couples say for like a week in the woods or something. No, not woods. Things crawl in the woods and not in a good way. They crawl looking for food. A resort! Yes, for a week at a resort! But without the cameras following us around.

Stop distracting me now, I'm tryna tell y'all a story.

My aunt went out to work, raised her children, despite the fact that her husband was drunk, daily. I guess she saw something in him that a lot of people either didn't or forgot about because underneath that alcoholic was a soft-hearted, beautiful, generous man.

I find that our generation, or most of us, are not real willing to work through the "worse" part of our vows but are right in there smiling through selfies during the "better" parts. They might give it a lil shot but the patience and perseverance of the older generation in marriages, has fallen off a high cliff. Matter of fact, the whole marriage concept seems to be degenerating because from what I observe from the generation after us? The very last thing that these mofo's are interested in, is getting married.

My uncle? Late in his life, had decided that it was time to change the way that he lived and once again, my aunt was right there beside him, supporting him, attending AA sessions with him, still being the wife to him that she'd promised to be.

He then bought this taxi, a yellow VW one, right. Like those hippie VW taxi's? ^_^!! Except with no daisies....! DRAT!!!! I will never forget that taxi because whenever I needed to go into the city and he would drive up to the bus stop and see me? He would call me, "Come mama!" And I would jump in and settle into my seat and then halfway through the journey, he would turn me into his assistant and have me collect the fares from everyone! Hahahahaha!

Taxi's had just then become a form of public transport for people. And by the time that he had passed away? He had grown his business to where he owned a fleet of taxis.

My point is this....we all have a past. That includes yesterday. Some parts of it, I'm sure we'd give anything to erase. I know I would. Dammmmmmmmm, would I!? I have this notion that we are the one's who give ourselves the hardest time about mistakes we've made. It's okay if it's propelling you forward. To do better. But if it's keeping you hemmed up in a place, stuck to one spot where you're so busy beating yourself up that it's crippling your future? Stop doing that.

Just like this quote I saw, "Your future is not tainted if your past has been. Every morning that you wake, is another chance to do better." It caused me to think about my uncle but what stands out for me is that he remained humble throughout his success. He was one of many taxi owners at the time but I didn't hear him comparing himself to them or talking about how he is better than they are. I never once heard him stroke his own ego by insulting other taxi owners. Those are the real winners right there. At least they are to me. There are people in this world who can't feel good about themselves unless they're degrading the next person. Unless they're belittling them like, "Look at me, look at me! Only I'm deserve admiration!" Whether in their profession or not. It's not only childish and braggish but it's ugly too.

Humility in success. Such a beautiful thing.

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I Did It!

We all get tired, you know, the way humans should
When battling back and forth with our own attitude
With the constant questions of why me's and when will's
'Til we empty of the happy 'cause the misery's filled

Little by little it eats us from the outside in
Where even the reflection in the mirror blurs to a dim
Makes us wonder if our day of redemption will ever come
But something inside still tells us that we gotta hold on

Desperate to feel normal again, to block out the blazing noise
We try, we fail, we get back up, not turning deaf to the voice
That soft one within us that keeps telling us to fight
That it's not over until that voice leads us back to the light

Each day, with it's needling of, "you're gonna be okay"
We wake so much stronger than we did on that yesterday
And when that strength is enough, we decide to make pain our bitch
To grab it by it's collar and make glory the snitch

Force it watch us dance and triumph in gratitude's melody
So that it knows it has no place in any part of you or me
Fight, everyday, fight against noises that resonate in your spirit
Fight, fight right now, 'til you shatter that mirror with, "I did it!"

(c) 2015 Stacey Kell
2015.05.24
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Thinking Out Loud

Wanted to share this with you. I tend to think out loud on Facebook and I haven't been defriended yet so I'm thinking that they might jussssssss appreciate the two cents that comes outa my thumbs. And that motivates me! It motivates me to keep thinking out loud. Like Ed Sheeran. Except his motivation comes from the millions and millions that he made off of that beautiful track!

I do try my best not to talk shit. At least not too much of it. We all should, I think! A world of less shit talking is appealing, don't you think? Let's all think for a minute...........................it's motivating..........................................I'm thinking. That's what all those dots mean. Thinking about chocolate and the way that loadshedding makes me drowsy. It's like they're brainwashing us to go to bed at 8pm. I'm onto these mofo's! WTF kinda bullshit tactic is that?!? If they threaten us with a tax increase, I'm sure we'd all sleep by eight. Like an electricity curfew. I wish someone could wash their brains so that we can at least pretend to have things in order over here.

This status update been lingering in my mind ever since I posted it, I guess because it hits home with me and I'm thinking too about the fact that over the past weeks, for some reason, I've been receiving outa the blue messages and having face to face conversations that have reinforced for me the fact that whatever little or whatever much I've said to or done for some of the people around me, it's mattered to them and made a difference to them. That's a good feeling right there. It motivates me. Eh, lotta motivation going on up in this bi---a-hem---i mean, place.

Life is surely strange. When you least expect appreciation, you are blessed with it. It kinda erases that bitter feeling of having done more than you ever should have for others, only to have them tell you or pretend that all you've done was take and take from them and gave nothing back. Yo, wacha gonna do? it is what it is and all that does is illuminate the truth. The truth that there are allllllll types of people in this world. And without a doubt, we will cross paths with the good, just like we will, the bad.

Don't let the bad deflate you though. Don't let those who soon forget your efforts to make difference in their lives cause you to stop trying to make a difference to others'. If that's "who you are", it's a good "who you are", don't change the positive parts of who you are for the negative parts of who they are, ever! The other way around, yes! By all means!

Today, my mum and dad are married for 53 years. Fifty! Three! Yearrrrrrs! I would have loved to have been married for fifty three years but my life plan didn't include a fifty anything marriage, which is fine! I know it has something equally significant planned for me!

Anyhoooooo, this is what I wanted to share with you.

"So much emphasis is put on trust in relationships, not nearly enough is put on respect for each other. Depending on where we are emotionally and psychologically, we're easily able to put all of our trust into a man/woman who doesn't have a lick of respect for us. Does trust in that situation make for a successful relationship? Nah. It makes for a temporary relationship. Once there is shift in our emotional state...? Once we begin to heal psychologically and the conversation that we have with ourselves goes from, "This is all that there will ever be for me" to "This can't be all that there will ever be for me," we learn that we don't have to accept one OR the other but that we shouldn't accept one WITHOUT the other. SK"

SK, by the way, is not code for "suck knees". They are the initials of my first and last name.
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Her Day!

Happy Mother's Day to my one and only beautiful spirited mum!


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Good Enough @JussieSmollett

I listen to this song on repeat because I love lyrics that mean something and well?  In my dream that will never come true, I'm a singer hahahahahahaha!  I'm not laughing at me...I'm laughing with you! Hehehe!

Seriously though, there have been times in most of our lives where, to someone in our world, this is all we've ever wanted, whether child to parent, woman to man...friend to friend.

I think Jussie's voice is simply amazeballs!  It took me hearing him just one time to become a fan!  Was playing Conqueror in the car on Friday and my mum was like, "Is this Michael Jackson?"  I didn't turn to her....not out of rudeness, but I wassss driving and more importantly, I was singing.  Dunno bout you but I can defiantly start a track all over again if it's one of my favourite's and someone decides to start a conversation.

So I shook my head and replied while singing, "--------Up and then dowwwwwwwn, going in circles tryna get to where you ar-rrre---------------'No-no, this?  Is the one and only, Jussie Smollett!--------everybody's been counting you out, but where are they now?  Sittin' in the same ole place just faces in the cro-owd!"

Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnd, I owe it to all smile lovers out there ......his?  A sky full of sunshine right there and from everything I've read about him thus far, he has a heart of gold too....

Enjoy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uDp_jmkPbiQ