I had theeeee best two days
evvvvvvvvver! So yesterday, right? Was Tuesday.
There I was, I’m minding my own
business. Doing my work and this….voice keeps talking to me. Noooooh,
noh! It wasn’t because of DT’s.
That was last week. ;-) So, I’m hearing this voice and I’m like, “Voice?
Come on now. Keep it down, can’t
you see a girls tryna work here?
Look…look at my desk!” You’d
think it’d listen after I told it to look at my desk. SMH. If someone told you to look at their
desk? What does that mean? It means be
quiet, right? Yeah.
At least someone understands.
But nooooooooooooooooh. Not the voice. I thought if I gave it a dirty look, it would
succumb to the pressure so I turn towards
it. I couldn’t find it. DRAT!!
I can’t see inside my head. My
talents have limits, okay.
I then go back to what I was doing, after the other voice in my head
said, “Hmmmmpf!” Yes!
It said an action. Voices have no mouths. They just talk. O_o!
Okay, this…this is not going
as I planned. Does sound like DT’s. My
only advice at this point is…just have
faith. Ye ol’ Rambler alwayyyyyys manages to bring the madness
together, somehow, don’t I? Ofcourse I
don’t. I mean, ofcourse I do.
“Forgive, forgive, forgive!”
Woahhh. Can’t believe I’ve got 384 pages of writing on this blog word document. That’s alota
writing. Thank you, Blackberry. And my thumbs! Hmmmmmmmmmmm? Maybe I should try publishing this. What you think? “Blog
of a mad Coloured Rambler.”
What? O_o
Whaaaaaaat? O_o
The voice?!?!? >_< Oh oh oh yeah! Sorry
about that. My eyes wandered off and
found the page count. And you know me. When my eyes find the page count, anythings possible. Except
push-ups. That’s a reaction to nothing but Jarryd’s instruction in
dance class and even then. I wanna
resist but I dowanna be thrown out. He’s
the boss in that studio. So yeah, allllllll day, “Forgive, forgive, forgive…..”
I realized that when a voice repeats the same word over and over and
over and over and over and over and over and over?
It might not know another one….or?!?!
Orrrrr? It may mean business.
Lemme tell you something. One of
the most difficult journey’s for me
has been reaching a point of being able to let go of past hurts and pain and honestly walk away from them. Yesterday? Two of my journies ended. I felt a calm like never before where it didn’t hurt anymore. It didn’t cause me anger anymore. I was chatting to my cousin Cindy the other
day and from our conversation, I understood
what was going on. I believe that this
was the first time that I’d
consciously heard God talk to
me. There were probably countless other
times that He did, where I didn’t recognise
it or didn’t acknowledge it the way I should have, but something incredible happened to me
yesterday. He didn’t stop until He got through to me.
Have you ever made a decision and knew?
You knew with everything inside of you that it was the
right one? I started thinking about the very beginning of time. I see you eyeballing that last sentence. Not….not alllllll
the way back to Adam and Eve. Come on
now? You’re trying to trick me, aren’t you? Throw me off track ‘cause you’re well aware that if you start asking me
questions while I’m in the middle of
a story, I might just start a new one
relating to something you mentioned.
Jus-jussst walk with me here, okay…thatttt’s
it. Next to me. No need to be running wild in the Garden of Eden.
Didn’t you hear? There’re snakes there.
No. I’m referring to the
beginning of my time. Two
very lonnnnnnng standing occurrences that I’ve been unable to walk away from? All I could think about!! And I’m talking over thirty years worth of harbouring this anger and resentment over what
happened. It all just…left me.
Just like that. And I feel absolutely, indescribably, new!
Today, I woke up and I decided that I’m gonna let those people involved know so that they too can free themselves and I did and guess what?! I feel even
better after having done that!
Uh-oh! It’s now just turned into tomorrow. I’m gonna get some rest so that I can wake as
fresh and as enthusiastic as I did
today! See you guys soon!
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