When One Door Closes…

There’s an old saying, “Everything happens for a reason…”  That’s one I definitely believe in.   There's another old saying, "When one door closes, another one opens."  That’s definitely something that would irritate the shit outa me if I happened to be sweeping at the time! 

But?  Domestic chores aside.….How do you handle failure?  I’m calling it failure because every time something doesn’t pan out for us, we either look at ourselves as failures, or we look at the other person, or thing, as being something that has failed us.    

It’s human nature though, isnt it?  To be angry or at the very least, disappointed, when things turn out differently than what we’d expected.  Hell!  There was a time in my life when I’d stare into the face of that closed door and b!tch and moan about things not working out the way that I wanted them to, but ay? 

Not anymore! 

At my age, the best thing I could have done was realize that doors could care less about whether you’re giving them death stares or begging them to answer your constant whining about, “Why me?!?!?”  They can’t talk.  They might be able to think.  I dunno?  I’m not a door and I don’t know anybody who ever was, so I can’t confirm that.  But!?!?  Regardless of your wants, wishes or woes, they will stand there, tightly hinged to that door frame, staring right back at you, with what appears to be thoughts of, “There she goes again with the why me, why me?!?!  Does this idiot not know that I don’t have a mouth!” 

My personal journey into the new and wonderful world of “dust it off and keep moving” per-say, took a while but once I decided to let go of some of the issues in my life that were either well on their way to rotting my personality, or just beginning to?  All I’ve been feeling is a positivity that I can barely explain.  I have not felt this way in forevvvvvvvvver!   Not even on my best day.  Hmmmmmmmmmmm….Maybe once.  When my mum told me that eventually a stranger did stop on the freeway to give them a ride to the hospital when she was about to give birth to me!  That alone gave me hope in mankind!  I just know that where I am right now, is where I’ve always wanted to be.  One word sums it all up.  Finally!  And none of it would be possible, if it hadn’t been for change! 

So yeah!  This is where I’m currently at.  Guess, what I’m trying to say is…don’t kick change when you’re down. 

You know what I’ve also noticed?  Relationship ends are the one thing, it seems, that cause people to have the most regret.  I’m sure  because so much of ourselves are invested in them, it’s tough not to feel that way.  I’d mentioned, in the beginning of this post, “Everything happens for a reason.”  To me, it’s as simple as that.  The more I think about it, the more I’m finding that things are just being made to be more complicated than they are or need to be.  I’ve been married, I’ve been divorced, I’ve been in a relationship, I’ve been single.  As far as all of those?  I no longer regret the start, I don’t regret the middle, and I won’t regret the end.  I will rejoice in my growth. 

The fact of the matter is that nothing will ever alter this…in the end, what is meant to be, will be.  Sometimes, it takes being apart to realize that you shouldn’t be together.  Other times, it takes you being together, to realize that you should be apart.  That’s it, that’s all.  Nothing more to see here, people! 

And yet, I continue typing. 

For a while now?  My relationship with my ex-husband, has been the best it’s ever been.  After we got divorced.  What that means to me?  When relationships don’t work out, it hardly means that one or both of you are dreadful people.  It doesn’t even have to be made to sound that way either.  All that does, is give power to the negative notions over all of the positive memories.  And all that does, is then turn those memories, into a lie.  I’m not interested in living my life that way, anymore!  With the world what it is, today?  It makes little to no sense to choose to turn good things into bad things, when there’s already too much bad for us to put up with. 

I’m grateful for my experiences, because they truly were experiences!  Experiences that when I sit and reflect?  Have taught me a whole lot about an array of different things.  All of them, and those still to come have no doubt prepared me for my past future and will surely prepare me for my future future, respectively.  Not all stories have a positive ending.  But then, that all depends on how you look at it.