Nothing wrong with a quick demonstration of past and present tense. You'll thank me one day. Uh-huh! You will. You will remember this blog post when the day comes and you're looking over your shoulder with sweet pleading confusion. Fully aware that yesterday won't be standing there, wearing bellbottom jeans and pink Chuck Taylor's, waving back at you...but you hope. Still. You hope it will at least meet you halfway with an answer to, "How did I not see THAT coming?!?"
The sooner we face the reality that it's wasted reflection to keep harassing ourselves with questions, we will never fully be able to answer, at that time. The better. Life has a way of throwing us off cliffs when we're taking too long to jump off of them, ourselves.
Sometimes, it forces you into places where you have no choice but to look back at what you haven't been able to see, while IN a certain situation. That doesn't apply solely to one particular situation. It applies to all. In order to get you to that "outside looking in" position, it had to remove you from it in order to alter your view.
I'm no psychologist. By any means. I'm just an insignificant ol' Rambler adding my two cents worth of what I've experienced throughout my life. I'm just saying, don't keep asking "What have I done in my life for this to keep happening...?" "Am I such a bad person, that this had to happen to me ...?" Who exactly are you expecting to answer that question?
Days, weeks, months, at times years, pass with you still anchored to the same spot because you couldn't move on until you were satisfied that your "why" question was answered. To your liking. When it might just be that whatever it was that you were a part of, was what was bad. Not you.
When you won't take the blinders off, yourself. Life will do it for you. When an intervention is needed. Life will do it for you.
Whether it's to avoid physical harm by causing you to reach home a bit late? You're running late at work? It aggravates you to the point of facial distortion because you have to be home at a certain hour? You're mumbling bitter-nothings under your breath about whomever it was that caused the delay. But then you pass a spot on the road, within your everyday route home and see a fatal accident? And think....that could have been me.
Be it to avoid emotional harm by removing you from a union that you're a part of. Example: You're part of a relationship where you find yourself constantly having to change who you are because of your partners own ideals of what is wrong and right while in the same breath he/she tells you how much they like who they are and won't change any part of themselves? Something goes on, and usually over a change you can't make. You part ways. You then begin to realize that what he/she actually loved most about you were the parts of yourself that you have changed. Not actually, who you were. Your eyes open to the realization that all you were doing throughout, was working your ass off to gain their acceptance.
I could go on and on but I gotta get to work......that job you didn't get, that home you didn't qualify to buy, that function you didn't make it to. If you take a second to think back, there will almost always be an "Ahhhhhhh" moment, where you see, no matter how opposed to it you were, no matter how aggravated by it you were, no matter how depressed about it you were? You see exactly why something HAD to happen.
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